Chapter 3...?

Well, here I sit, staring at the screen, thinking of what to write.

I have been meaning to blog for the last few weeks, I just wasn't sure what to write about.  So I decided to write about everything.

For starters: I will be starting a new job on the 4th of September.  It will be at the Customer Service desk at Canadian Tire.  It's 40 hours a week, minimum wage, raise every year, and benefits.  It's not a perfect job, but I know there is no threat of the store closing in 6 months time, or a contract expiring.  

I totally appreciate the opportunity to have worked on the floor at Zellers with some of the best staff there.  I made new friends while there, and hope I can still be invited to the year end party that all the causal Friday money want to :) 

I wanted to stay till the end, but I had to look to the future and now was the time to expand my horizons and seek another source of employment before there was nothing left in March of next year.  I will miss most of the staff there and who knows, maybe I will end up working with some of them across the way.

With this new door opening, I hope it will give me enough room and motivation to get some me time in there. 

I hope to be able to get a membership for the gym soon because I can feel an addiction to Subway coming on.  It is way to close for me not to go.  I know it is healthier than other options, but it will be costly as well.  I LOVE Subway, I could eat it every day in a healthy way, but it would break my bank for damn sure.

Of course, I will be brown bagging it for the most part, but it is very tempting to eat there all the time!  I did good there today.  Only got a 6" flat bread, roast chicken, and BAKED chips instead of cookies.  That was a really hard decision.  

I've heard good things about something called Quinoa (kin-wa).  It's like cous-cous, and better for you than rice.  I haven't tried it yet, but I did buy some and hope to try it this week.  I will let you know how that goes with my next post.

Shawn's kids were up for a visit at the beginning of August.  It was a great visit.  At least I think it was.  It was cut a little short due to uncontrollable circumstances, but we made it work.  

While they were here, as much junk food as I ate, chips, pop, ice cream, etc, I lost almost 4 pounds.  And I believe it was because for our main meals, I had to share with 3 people, not just 1.  My portions were smaller and there wasn't many bed lunches.  I am trying really hard now to divide my cooking into at least 3 portions for left overs and the such.  And eating more fruit.

With that I am am but ONE pound away from my short term goal and 51 from my first long term goal.  I was supposed to have reached that by my birthday of this year, but to get it off and keep it off, I am aiming for my birthday of next year.  If I can't loose 51 pounds in a year, there is something wrong with me.

All told from the start of my weight loss journey in January of 2011, I have lost, and kept off, a total of 24 pounds.  To some, that may not be a lot in a year and a half, but for me to have lost it and kept it off, is the greatest thing ever.  I honestly wish it was more, and believe if I had will power and motivation, I could have reached my long term goal by my birthday.

I am not placing blame on anyone other than myself, but if Batman and Wonder Woman hadn't gotten married in October 2011, I would still be going to the gym on a regular basis.  I let my membership run out 2 weeks before the wedding so I could focus on giving them a well decorated wedding hall.  I kept saying as soon as the wedding is over, I will re-join.  Well, November came and went, no deals on memberships.  December came and I told myself that it's Christmas, why not wait till January specials.  January came and the Biggest Loser contest was up again, and it included 2 days per week of exercise so I joined.  Didn't sign up with the gym because it was already included and would have cost more money.  Then the whole rash thing happened and with the Biggest Loser contest, came a huge disappointment for me.

So here I am, feeling like I am starting over from scratch.  But I am working on it, and I am working on myself in the mean time.

So right now, I am about to have a nap then get ready for some cards with my awesome friends and my bestie that hasn't been home for over 2 years!  

Here's to a great night!

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"Failure is not falling down, it's not getting back up" ~ m. pickford