new month, new chapter

But I lost count as to what chapter I am on.  5 maybe?

Starting tomrrow I will try and remember to drink green tea.  I got the idea from a friend at work.  She does hers a little differently but the main process is boiling water, adding green tea bags and drinking :)

I boiled 8 cups of water, and steeped 4 green tea bags for about 20 minutes.  Only because I was playing a facebook game and got distracted. I guess 5 minutes is a good time.  

She adds honey to hers, but I decided not to.  I took 6 water bottles and divided up the tea, and added a little water to top it off.  

If you like plain green tea, this is great.  But I found the taste a little bitter.  Hence the honey.  I added a small squirt of some MIO and it tastes pretty decent. 

They say drinking green tea can help aide in weight loss and boost metoblism.  After these last few weeks, I will try anything to get a little more energy.  

I  am going to give it a month and see if there is a difference.  I feel like I am starting all over with this whole journey.  But I guess once you fall, you have to dust yourself off and get going again.  Because I have less than 7 months to get rid of 53 pounds.

I WILL DO THIS!

It's all about the Bordens, baby

I was sick yesterday. And I know I am sick when I can't eat.  

My throat is sore, and tender to the touch.  There is a lump there, but that's just probably a swollen gland or something.  It kinda hurts to swallow too.  It feels like there is something clogging my throat and makes it hard to breathe.

I should have called in sick last night, and went to the clinic. It was only a 4hour shift, but when you live from pay cheque to pay cheque, you need all the hours you can  get.

I did like the number on the scale this morning though.  Down 0.8 of a pound.  May not sound like a whole lot, but it's a good number for me.  Probably because I barely ate anything.  And that was after I had a Baconator and Poutine from Wendy's on Tuesday.

A few co-workers and I were talking last night about being anorexic and bulimic. 

I will admit, I've tried both.  By looking at me, obviously I didn't stick.  I am aware these are disorders and not to be taken lightly.  I know people who have suffered eating disorders. 

I have tried to just eat the bare minimum, but I was so hungry that I ate everything.  I also tried throwing up after I ate a few times, but I hate being sick, and to me, it seemed like a waste of money.  Why bother even eating if I am going to throw it up and not get any enjoyment out of it.

And that is my problem.  I enjoy food too much to get any further than I am at my long term goal.  

And eating healthy is so expensive.  If the "higher ups" want people to eat healthier, why don't they lower the cost of eating healthy instead of, or along with "banning" soda and the like.  Sure, getting kids out of the habit now before they get in one is great, but there are adults out there who have been trying and trying to get healthy too.  

It's great that you get a tax break if you have kids that have a gym membership.  But what about adults?  What about the people with no kids, working day in and day out just to make ends meet.  No tax breaks for them.  

Well, that went way off topic there. 

In closing, I need a better paying job, or they need to increase minimum wage in New Brunswick.